We are already well into the 3rd week of Body Back. I cannot believe how fast it is going this time, especially as I reflect back to the beginning of this journey. That first session, I was literally counting the days till it was over. I would give myself many pep talks and mark out the workout days like a senior in high school during the last days of school. It's funny because now each time I go to a workout or meet up with my bb buddies, I now think... I GET to do this! I GET to workout today. I am physically fit enough to do these workouts! What an amazing feeling!!
For all the encouragement and compliments I have received during this process, (thank you btw!!) I still seem to obsess over the negative comments. Why do we do this to ourselves? My stepfather, who I love dearly, came by on Sunday evening to visit with my daughter. As I am running around getting ready for the week, he says to me, "Well, what happened to my plus size daughter?" WHAT??? Really, true story! Now, I know he was trying to compliment me in a weird, round about way, but still. It hurt my feelings and then made me panic because I never saw myself as plus size. Jeffy was bombarded with questions all week from me like, "Honey, did you think I was that fat, or Sweetie, was I really that big." Poor guy! Then, of course I proceeded to tell my sister, and a couple close friends and my mom. And telling my mom was the kicker, because she tells me the truth. She said, "You have lost a lot of weight and look great, but you were quite heavy." Zing! Ouch!! Before I became a mother to a daughter I seriously do not think I would have understood my mom's words. I do now because I want my daughter to be the best possible version of her self in every single way. That means telling her the truth, even if it hurts her feelings. And to be there for her along the way…
So, today I have decided to take that comment and use it for inspiration. That comment and all the negative comments I stew over, I will now use as motivation to continue this journey for the rest of my life. Obviously I am not going to focus solely on the number on the scale; there are so many other aspects. After this session I vow to continue to workout, eat right, and challenge myself to the next level of fitness. I have never had more confidence and pride in myself until now, not because I am thinner necessarily, but because I am stronger, fitter and have pushed myself farther than I ever thought I could go. I have to be that person now because I have two little almond brown eyes looking at every single move I make! I am her role model and my ultimate inspiration!!
Have a fun weekend! xoxo
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